The Whatnot of TJ

*dusts this site off*

How are you all? I have missed you all like CRAZY! Why do I keep letting life keep me away? WHYYYYYY?!?! I certainly don't mean to. Not even a little.

But, school is killing me.
Work is killing me.

I find relief in fandom things... but only have the time to consume it and let it fill my head with fantasy and whatnot. it doesn't give me time to interact with it, to create anything from it.

Hardly ever.

But, I am trying (again) to change that. I'm forcing myself to do things that I enjoy instead of just the things I have to do.

Things like:



Yep, once again, I am participating (and modding a bit) this glorious fest! It really does help me connect with my fandom self and it's great to also reconnect with the other old timers while meeting new lovelies. ♥

The first day was to update the profile or intro post. But my update last year is still painfully accurate so it stays.

( Cutting for length )

Okay, I think that's enough to be getting through tonight/today. Thank you for reading. ♥

Challenge One: Introduce Yourself:

I had such high hopes for this year's round of Fandom Snowflake Challenge--just like previous years--and so far, while I'm not failing (thanks FSC for extended the fest for slackers such as I) YET, it's not looking good so far.

But enough of that. My intention when first seeing this challenge was to have my post up first thing January 1st (HAHAHA). I was going to host a virtual tea party. Invite each one in with a flair of get to know you chit chat and luxuriate in the joy of sharing with others my life story and hearing more of other's shenanigans.

What you will have here now instead is a virtual speed dating round where I will try to precisely (i.e. bullet point) a few salient points about my journey thus far and hopefully entice others to give me their elevator speech versions of themselves before we delve into the nitty-gritty of the rest of the month.

Here goes:

♥ I'm random AF
♥ I'm ridiculous AF
♥ I really enjoy finding new things to flail about and then sadly move on before they complete.

     Examples: Doctor Who, Supernatural and X-Files (though I do hope to finish both Doctor Who (or at least all of New Who) and X-Files (damn movie halfway through has stopped me in my tracks for some reason). I stopped Supernatural at the end of Season 5 because except for that last 3 seconds there at the end, it was just such a perfectly well told and nicely concluded story and I was uncertain to ever having that level of closure if I were to continue, ya know?

     Exceptions: Harry Potter (my first and forever fandom--here until the end and beyond, even if the shine has gone), White Collar (Mozzie will always rule my heart ♥) and Star Wars (Han fangirl from before I even knew there were such things). Edited to add: The West Wing (OMG how did I forget one of the only things keeping me sane these days?!?!)

♥ LOVE SMALL FANDOMS too, like A LOT of them.
♥ Mostly contribute in fandom as fangirl, fanfic writer, fanfic writer cheer-er oner, meta (mostly in my head, though I have written some--and even had a few of them published in places like Mary Sue and Outside In)

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Since I talk about more than just fandom--yes even in Fandom Snowflake Challenge--here's a bit about that aspect of my life (or as much as I'm comfortable sharing here in a public post).

♥ I am, in fandom circles what is considered, old AF
♥ I am a child care provider and LOVE it
♥ I am, and will more than likely, remain single and childless forever and LOVE it
♥ Identify as female
♥ Queer AF

So that's my time up. Tell me your bits now, cool?

Another Wednesday came and went without me noticing. And the week before's WiP Wednesday was so fun...until I dropped the ball on that too.

Ugh.

I do try. I do have the best of intentions when I start. And I have tons of fun ideas of challenges and ways to keep myself engaged, but a fear that I will peter out on those as well--or that people will have given up on me and my lack of follow through to want to participate.

BLAHBLAHBLAH WHINEWHINEWHINE

Enough of that. How are you all?

Tell me about your week. Tell me something awesome that you attempted/tried/accomplished. Tell me about a challenge that you conquered/smashed/powered through. Let me celebrate you and all that makes you magnificent. ♥♥

If the world and all its myriad and tedious bested you this week and you just need some love instead. Then I am here for that a well. ♥♥

So, I thought this might be a fun way for me to be here with you all on a weekly basis. Every Wednesday, come and share a bit of what you're working on, whether it be fic, craft, art, meta or anything in between. It doesn't have to be fandom-related. But, if it's for a anonymous fest and your stuff is to be secret, then maybe don't share that? You could share any struggles, achievements and whatnot though.

Feel free to read other people's entries (if anyone else does this that is) and cheer/commiserate/bemoan with them.

And please, don't worry that it's 4 pages and almost 300 comments in. I personally am at the bottom of page 3 and THAT is where the party is at. Also, remember, after you put your info in, you have to VISIT OTHER PEOPLE'S COMMENTS and sometimes make the first step. I know it's hard. I know most of us are introverts and putting ourselves out there is hard, but, truly, no one goes there and puts themselves out there if they don't want you to interact with them, yeah? So DO IT! ♥♥

Firstly, holy shit, can you believe it?!?! Not only is this the last challenge, but that I am doing it, and on THE DAY it was assigned. WHA?!?!! Who am I?!?! Okay, shhhh, I skipped one day. The talk about how a fandom changed your life one. IDK, I just feel I've sort of done that one to death? Maybe?

Day 15

In your own space, write a love letter to Fandom in general, to a particular fandom, to a trope, a relationship, a character, or to your flist/circle/followers. Share your love and squee as loud as you want to.

Is it bad that I want to half-ass this? It's the last one, I should want to pour my heart out. It's just that, I've gotten super earnest and sappy on a fair few of these. I think I've worn myself out.

If I were to wax poetic about love of fandom things, it would be about you all. The friends I've made along the way in this thing called fandom life have been my everything. Our fandoms, interests and ways of expressing them might have changed and shifted through the years, as has our ways of keeping in touch, but through it all, it comes back to you.

And you know I love you, right?

♥


I also just love that after doing this challenge these last few weeks, when I hit double enter on my phone's keyboard, the "suggested word" always comes up as &hearts Heehee...see, I've been expressing my love pretty nonstop these last few weeks. ♥♥

Day 7:

In your own space, create a love meme for yourself. Let people tell you how amazing and awesome and loveable you really are.

Okay, this doesn't have to be as horrifying as I imagine right? I might be awkward in a lot of things, but I'm pretty used to many different ways of expressing love. I leave nothing more than " ♥ " on a lot of things because that's all I have to say. Everyday of Froggy's five years, I've told him "I love you." and everyday he replies, "I know." and I melt. I know he loves me. Just like Leia knew... ♥

So, really, no need for mushy. I'll know.

Stolen idea from vaysh: Really, post some gifs of Bucky and Steve something we both love in comments, and I know you love me. :)

I keep meaning to come here and vomit all the things that are going on at you--gross. But, it just starts to get overwhelming, you know? So, I'll just share this, because I am ridiculously excited about this and want you all to participate with me:



I will be back later with more stuff, but for now. SNOWFLAKE! SNOWFLAKE! SNOWFLAKE!!

art by twilightsorcery

I will be over there later today--or whenever I get through this mountain of things on this never ending To-Do List.